Okay, it's been a looooong time since I posted here. I've mostly been monitoring my progress on a different blog, but I'm going to be tracking the progress on this one again!
As you can see, I've lost almost 50 pounds! I started a ketogenic diet on January 5th 2007. It's been 6 months and the pounds dropped off FAST the first few months. I took a break from the diet, but I'm getting back on board! The amount of weight you can lose in such a short period of time is amazing!
SO!! Tomorrow I start again, and I will give you updates periodically! Let me tell you, just about everyone that tries this diet sees dramatic results. Very cool.
More to come soon!
Okay, I finally admit it. I'm OBESE. I can't hide from it any longer. I had a huge realization that I'm one of the biggest people I know. I used to be able to say, well I'm fat, but so-and-so is huge, so I'm okay. Nope. My so-and-so's are all smaller than me now and I still don't see it with my own two eyes. I've been in denial a looooong time.
Shit, I gained 8 pounds since the holidays! I tire of getting inspired only to fall off the wagon after two days. There's got to be something wring with my frame of mind or something!
Well, I tested my willpower in a small way. Last week, ALL week long, I made a "bet" with myself that I wouldn't eat a co-worker's Hershey's kisses. I looooove them and had been eating about 10 EACH DAY the prior week. Well last week, I did it. I was tempted several times. I tried reasoning with myself that one wouldn't hurt, and even on Friday I told myself that the bet was over since I made it to Friday. But STILL I didn't give in. So I know I've got some willpower, but when it comes to bigger, yummier things, I crumble!
I still haven't found out what the trigger is. It's not depression.. I've always lost my appetite when upset. It's not boredom.. I've never really eaten just because there's nothing else to do. I don't really know what it is. One thing that my sister noticed about me was that I used to sing when it was time to eat. I would sing while making a sandwich or cooking food. Jabe told me recently that I still do that. Sure enough, over the last few weeks I realized it's true! I get so happy about eating, it makes me sing. Is that effed up? I don't know what to think about that.
So anyway, Mondays are our "start" days for anything we want to begin (or end) so I'm giving it another go. I hoping that if I change some behaviors, I can start breaking down the cause of my overeating. I'll give you progress during the week.
First of all, I've been utilizing the idea of counting points from Weight Watchers. Although I'm not a member, this has been VERY effective. There is an AWESOME online calculator that has been really helpful for me at: http://www.alexnolan.net/onlinetools/weightwatcherspointscalculator.htm
Anyway, it's been several weeks and I've stopped dieting and exercising. I've gained 4 pounds because of this. I've started back up again today and I found popcorn to be a big help when I'm hungry. At a glance, the calories, fat, and even carbs are intimidating... until you realize those numbers are for UNpopped popcorn. The popped version is sooo much less. For example, 170 calories unpopped or 40 popped. And 12 grams of fat vs. 3 grams popped... Carbs are 16 unpopped and only 4 popped. That's really awesome! The whole bag is only 4 points, so I can snack on it all day with no guilt. COOL!
I've also been getting serious cravings for vegetables. This is obviously a good thing. I put broccoli in my macaroni and cheese. ALOT of broccoli. Not sure why, yet. Never used to do that before. I must be deficient in iron or something.
I'm going to find some cheap and easy foods to make for lunch. At first I was going to take leftovers to work, but we don't always make enough for leftovers. If any of you have any suggestions (any recipes with only about 5 ingredients) then PLEASE by all means let me know.
Anyway, I'm just acknowledging that I made a mistake, and I have to get back on track. I can see what I'm doing is working, so I have no excuse to quit. It doesn't make sense! So here I am... ready to go!
Well who knows how long it will take, but at least I'm trying!
I've done pretty well this second week. We did have lunch at Carino's for a friend's birthday, but I had the best thing I could get and took responsibility for eating it. I did okay, but not as good I would have liked. I noticed my downfall is when I think I've "ruined" my diet, so I give up totally on it. I didn't do that this time.
I am very proud of Jabe as well, who lost enough weight to go down on his points bracket. He's a little frustrated because he isn't losing as fast as I am, but part of that may be because I'm way more heavy than he is. *Well now he just came in and said something stupid to piss me off, so I'm not going to continue the subjet of HIM*
Anyway, I lost another 4 pounds, so I'm down 10 total. Looking good so far. I'm nervous about the day my plateau will come, but I just have to be strong. We started using the workout room at the apartment complex and have been using the treadmills and bikes. That seems to be doing some good. Next week I will probably do some toning/weight training as well. I don't want to overwhelm myself though. Just taking it one step at a time.
Thanks for the support everyone. I truly appreciate your kind and encouraging words.
Woohoo! I was going to do a diet plan called Lean for Life, which is a low-carb diet. But Jabe was afraid he wouldn't like it, and it is pretty hard-core for a beginner. We decided to start Weight Watchers, but we are using the books that we bought at a garage sale. We have family members that have been on it, so they can also help guide us through it without a membership.
Well, it's been a week, and I've lost 6 pounds! Jabe has lost 7 and we are both feeling changes within ourselves. We get fuller faster and we love measuring our food because it makes us realize how much we used to eat. I probably used to have 3 to 4 servings of food in one sitting. I'm especially happy for Jabe because he gets discouraged easily and he needed to see that it is working. We have been drinking 8-12 glasses (8 oz.) of water daily, and that has made a BIG difference.
Tomorrow, we will start walking for 30 minutes daily. Soon after, I will start learning to tone muscles. I know exercise will also be a big factor in my weight loss.
I'm glad I finally got to start a diet. It's been a long time and we both know this is the right time.
I've been thinking about weight loss alot lately. I'm very troubled by how heavy I am. Mostly for health reasons, but also because I just hate the way I look (even moreso recently). I've noticed for the past week, that I don't enjoy food the way I used to (which can be bad and good).. I think it's because I feel like food is the enemy, when really it's me that's causing this. Even when I eat small portions (because I USED to have portions enough to feed a small country) I still feel like eating is wrong. I haven't eaten at all today and it's 5 PM.. which is dinner time. I eventually give in to the hunger pains, and LATELY I've seriously been eating out of boredom, which caused some weight gain in between jobs... Anyway, I'm soooo ready to do the Lean for Life program, but I need to buy groceries and I don't have any money.. I've been making it off of canned goods and ramen noodles. Also family feeds us from time to time. Eating on a schedule and several times a day in smaller portions is key to losing weight. I learned that last year... so until I can buy those groceries... I went ahead and posted my stats up top, so I can start tracking the progress. I have to fight myself to put it up there. I think mostly because I don't want the rest of the world to know what I weigh.. I have encountered so much rejection just because of my weight. I used to be so glad that I was out of school so I didn't have to hear the ridicule. I don't hear it much anymore, but I can still SEE it. People can be extremely hateful to a fat person. I'm glad I got to experience being fat, so I will never do that to other people. Fat people beat up on themselves enough, without others joining in. It's a terrible inward battle. My face used to be thin enough that I would just look at it in a mirror and be slightly okay with being fat. Now my face has ballooned and I hate everything I see in the mirror. This is my lowest low. I realized online people hate fat people the most. The other day I was chatting (with a GIRL nonetheless) and she wanted to know what I look like. I refuse to post pictures up right now, and I don't have any right now anyway. So I told her the truth, (which I usually don't because of what happens) thinking that she would understand being a girl. Turns out she's a skinny bitch and she thought when I said I'm "heavy" that meant I was being critical of myself. When I told her I am OBESE and need to lose about 100 pounds she immediately quit talking to me. Fat people are treated like they have a plague they can spread to everyone. I push people away so they won't get a chance to judge me and I assume EVERYWHERE I go that someone is making fun of me. Anyway I'm done with my rant. Just so I know where I am.. my stats are in the title.
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